Perfect

I was talking with a friend today about artistry and in our view there happened to be a rolling chair that was missing a wheel and a back support.  So I continued to say…

Me: “As artists, we find imperfect things so beautiful, like this chair for instance.  In fact that is what we are “preaching” to the world,  ’This imperfect thing has worth to me, and I find purpose,value, and aesthetic in this thing that people see as not fully functional.’  While all the while, we ourselves are trying to be perfect human beings.  In other words, as artists we seek perfection and stability in ourselves while trying to capture the beauty in that which is imperfect and unstable.

So, how is it then that we fail to see the beauty in our own selves as individuals? We are all imperfect right? So that must mean we are complete by our very own standards that we hold our art to and so we ought to stop trying to be perfect then. 

The problem is, is that we are still searching for that which is perfect and stable to fill up our imperfectness and unstability  … I think we are all searching for God and we don’t even know it. “

My friend:  "Hmm, (nodding his head) can you say that one more time?"

Me: ”In short, we are imperfect people searching for the perfect in that which is already imperfect. Thus we have an endless cycle of searching for what is perfect in hope that it will complete that which is imperfect in us.  The truth is, is that only God can fill that hole in us.  Our imperfectness and our pursuit of it is only second best in comparison to the perfection that is found in solely in Him.”

Again, He is perfect and on my own apart from him I am forever imperfect.

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1 John 2:5

But whoever keeps his word, in him truly the love of God is perfected. By this we may know that we are in him:

1 John 4:12

God lives in us and his love is perfected in us.

Wide Eyed.

 

"Your eyes are windows into your body.  If you open your eyes wide in wonder and belief, your body fills up with light.  If you live squinty-eyed in greed and distrust, your body is a dank cellar.  If you pull the blinds on your windows, what a dark life you will have!"

-Matthew 6:22-23

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An interesting thought popped into my head recently..

"Why do children stare the way they do?"

Then the next thought I thought was…

"Why do adults not stare anymore?"

So I decided to do a little digging in that department.

I came across a forum where someone had asked a similar question.

However the adults that were answering this question where rather annoyed with their children’s staring.

How it was starting to impose on their lives somehow and that it was rude.

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One thing to take note is this…

"Let the children alone, don’t prevent them from coming to me. God’s kingdom is made up of people like these."

Matthew 19:14

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There’s something about children that captures everyone’s heart.  How much more so for our dad up above (I like to call my God my dad).

Children are a delight!

They are so naturally curious!

Curiosity and creativeness are already ingrained in them, their hearts are so pure.

However, back to the forum….

Theses parents were frustrated about their children’s staring.  

One parent said something along these lines

“I wanted my child to look at the sky, trees, water, plants, and rocks with wonder.  But then as they grow up it goes from wonder to don’t wonder.   Look but don’t look.”

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Did you know that babies spend one fifth of their waking hours in focused gazing?

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For me, personally, as I grew up that kind of thinking got ingrained into my psyche.  

Now as I’m maturing as an artist, God is pointing out some things in my heart.

He is telling me to stare, stare wide eyed, and be a child again.

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A little side note-

-When teaching kids how to create, or rather letting them create, its important to not tell them what to draw, or how to do it, or what it will end up like in the end.  

Their natural interests are valid and they need to be pursued.  Its a desire.

It’s like going to a library and the kid just naturally finding books that take their notice.

As a parent, wouldn’t it be odd if your kid asked you over and over “ Is this the right book?  Should I get more music books, science books, nature books?”

You would ultimately say, but politely, “ I don’t know don’t you have a brain up there?  Pick out books you like, its okay too.”

The books they pick out give you a window into who they are.  Likewise the things people say and do give insight into their way of thinking.

I think its safe to say that he wants my curiosity about his wonders to be my guide.  Wherever it leads me, because it leads back to him in the end, he created everything the books are based off of in the library anyway.  

I sometime ask him, “Dad, what do you want me to draw?  What is the best way to draw it?  Is this right?  Am I doing it right?!”  

And he is like “I gave you this desire to investigate and find wonder.  I want you to be confident in pursuing it.  Just do it.  Stop asking me is it right….It’s not going to change how I feel about you :)”

No wonder why I don’t really hear anything from him in that department…

He is already screaming at me to just naturally pursue what I find beautiful….  through that chase I learn more about him, because then it becomes my own personal pursuit and mine alone.

Which makes our relationship personal and intimate.

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I keep getting sidetracked lol…

but my main point is what does it mean to “have our eyes open wide in wonder?”

Sounds like staring..

Lets look up what it means in a strong’s concordance…

the transliteration for stare is atenzio..

Which means to stretch or strain. So to be stretched wide.  It also means to take much delight.

And the definition for wide is fully open or extended; arms outstretched to the fullest extent.  

To be extending over a great distance from side to side.  

In Hebrew wide is  rachab.

To enlarge, rejoice, speak boldly; open wide.

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Psalms 81:10

“….open wide your mouth and I will fill it.”

Matthew 6:22

“…If you open your eyes wide in wonder…”

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Its pretty interesting…

I thought I would share though.

I really don’t know where I’m going with this… I really love to ramble about God :)

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Draw from what you like….what books does that inner child like to pick out in the library. 

Stop denying the pleasure of your inner child.

My inner desire is whatever my dad wants.  And he just wants intimacy with me.  So I go off of that~

 

To Create.
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In the beginning…..God created the heavens and the earth….
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Most of the people I have spoken to say they like to create because they want to share what they have made with others.  To show them how they saw a particular event and how they choose to interpret it.  To invite people into their way of seeing things.  But not only that, we create because really it is just a pure joy.  That’s why we got into this stuff called “art” in the first place.
We have this urge to communicate!  
We say, “Mom, the wave… it went like this!”  And so we draw it out boldly or subtly or how it made us feel.
Or we say, “Dad, the song, it went something like this…Bum, bum, BUMMM!”
Or,  ”Grandma, the tree branches rocked back and forth like this…” So you motion it with your hips.

Art is created by reacting.
We didn’t think first.  We did it.
As we grow up, we mature.  Our bodies as well as our thoughts.  
But that first spark…that creative energy can either lie dormant or continue to show itself once in a while or it can just be a lifestyle.
This is for the artists out there..
Lets not get overwhelmed by creating a masterpiece.  
Lets just make something….just because…
well, just because we like it.  
No reason.  
Just cause.
I guarantee you that we don’t have to burden ourselves by becoming work-a-holics.  
What are we racing for?
Why are we trying to be better than others?
When there will be something else to take its place…
I mean just observe… isn’t it already true?
Long story short…
Go from your gut.  
Draw from what inspires you and how it affects you personally.  
Your the one signing your work at the end of the day.
Now is the time to make personal work, not tomorrow or the next day or the next day…
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But on a side note~
God created this earth, so that he could invite us into his creation.  Its all so beautiful too.  We are apart of it.  Basking in it.  Sitting in it.
He created out of deep love.  Creating all we see so that we could know that it comes from a dad that seeks intimacy with his children.  
Just cause.

To Create.

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In the beginning…..God created the heavens and the earth….

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Most of the people I have spoken to say they like to create because they want to share what they have made with others.  To show them how they saw a particular event and how they choose to interpret it.  To invite people into their way of seeing things.  But not only that, we create because really it is just a pure joy.  That’s why we got into this stuff called “art” in the first place.

We have this urge to communicate!  

We say, “Mom, the wave… it went like this!”  And so we draw it out boldly or subtly or how it made us feel.

Or we say, “Dad, the song, it went something like this…Bum, bum, BUMMM!”

Or,  ”Grandma, the tree branches rocked back and forth like this…” So you motion it with your hips.

Art is created by reacting.

We didn’t think first.  We did it.

As we grow up, we mature.  Our bodies as well as our thoughts.  

But that first spark…that creative energy can either lie dormant or continue to show itself once in a while or it can just be a lifestyle.

This is for the artists out there..

Lets not get overwhelmed by creating a masterpiece.  

Lets just make something….just because…

well, just because we like it.  

No reason.  

Just cause.

I guarantee you that we don’t have to burden ourselves by becoming work-a-holics.  

What are we racing for?

Why are we trying to be better than others?

When there will be something else to take its place…

I mean just observe… isn’t it already true?

Long story short…

Go from your gut.  

Draw from what inspires you and how it affects you personally.  

Your the one signing your work at the end of the day.

Now is the time to make personal work, not tomorrow or the next day or the next day…

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But on a side note~

God created this earth, so that he could invite us into his creation.  Its all so beautiful too.  We are apart of it.  Basking in it.  Sitting in it.

He created out of deep love.  Creating all we see so that we could know that it comes from a dad that seeks intimacy with his children.  

Just cause.

A love letter 01

Father,

Oh how I love you!!!

How can I deny it.

How can I keep it in. 

Lord, who can match your generosity?

I searched for someone like you all my life, and now I have found you!

When I look into your face, I see all things beautiful.

I see the dawn.

The stars.

The ocean.

Like an eagle hovering over its babies, is how you hover over me.

Lord, the warmth from your chest keeps me safe through the night.

The worlds wisdom, throughout the dawn of time, couldn’t amount to 

anything when in your midst.  

You give me boldness of voice. 

Clarity.

Utter clarity.

The world mocks me, they think I have lost it for loving you.  

God, you are by me.  

You are no idea, you are not a concept, you are alive!  

My name is in you Father.  

My hope in you.

Death has no reign over my soul.  

Darkness is but a memory. 

Darkness is a bluff.

Father you never let me go. 

Nothing can and ever will fill the void of my heart,

nothing has any business in there except you.

Oh God…. where would I be without you…

…my very identity is in you.

You have turned this animated dust into animated life!

You have torn down my pathetic sand castle and built in me a new

castle made of solid gold….and of diamond.

Lord everlasting.

Discipline your children Oh God!!

Bring them to you.

Open their eyes.

Draw them nearer to you.  

May they see how good you are.

May they take delight in you.

You have delighted in them even while we were still in the womb.

Turn these mockers on their heads.  

Humble them, wreck them so that they may see that you are the living 

God.

Show them that you only discipline them out of love, like a good dad

would.

Give me boldness… Oh God.  

My only desire is to be with you.  

Draw me into shark filled waters so that I can just cling to your hand 

ever tighter.

Correct me, yes me, your beloved. 

Correct the light of your eye.  So that I can be near to you.

I can’t stand to leave your presence.  

Give me honest words.

And a honest spirit.  

I don’t care if I have to step on people’s toes.

Your son did it, out of love for all.

May I be the spitting image.  

For I am made in your image.

You are mine,

and I am yours….

Embrace me father.  

Embrace your children!!!

Do you hear them starving, while they themselves don’t even realize it!

They have nothing to cling to, it keeps falling through their fingers.  

But Lord give them something to eat.

Give them all of you.

That will never fail their hunger.

They will be filled….

In your fullness and love….

They will be full.

The Hands of the Father.
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"Can a mother forget the infant at her breast,
walk away from the baby she bore?
But even if mothers forget,
I’d never forget you- never.
Look, I’ve written your names on the backs of my hands.”
Isaiah 49:15-16  The Message Bible
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"Though she may forget,
I will not forget you!
See, I have engraved you on the palms on the palms of my hands.”
New International Version (NIV)

May God do wonders in your life! ~

The Hands of the Father.

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"Can a mother forget the infant at her breast,

walk away from the baby she bore?

But even if mothers forget,

I’d never forget you- never.

Look, I’ve written your names on the backs of my hands.”

Isaiah 49:15-16  The Message Bible

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"Though she may forget,

I will not forget you!

See, I have engraved you on the palms on the palms of my hands.”

New International Version (NIV)

May God do wonders in your life! ~

My Redeemer.  
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Psalm 27 The Message Bible
Light, space, zest- that’s God!
So, with him on my side I’m fearless, afraid of no one and nothing.
 When vandal hordes ride down ready to eat me alive, Those bullies and toughs fall flat on their faces.
When besieged, I’m calm as a baby.  When all hell breaks loose, I’m collected and cool.
I’m asking God for one thing, only one thing:  To live with him in his house my whole life long.  I’ll contemplate his beauty; I’ll study at his feet.
That’s the only quiet, secure place in a noisy world, The perfect gateway, far from the buzz of traffic.
God holds my head and shoulders above all who try to pull me down.  I’m headed for his place to offer anthems that will raise the roof!   Already I’m singing God-songs; I’m making music to God.  
Listen, God, I’m calling at the top of my lungs:  ”Be good to me! Answer me!”  When my heart whispered, “Seek God,” my whole being replied, “I’m seeking him!”  Don’t hide from me now!
You’ve always been right there for me; don’t turn your back on me now. Don’t throw me out, don’t abandon me;  you’ve always kept the door open.  My father and mother walked out and left me, but God took me in.
Point me down your highway, God;  direct me along a well-lighted street; show my enemies whose side you’re on.  Don’t throw me to the dogs, those liars who are out to get me, filing the air with their threats.  
I’m sure now I’ll see God’s goodness in the exuberant earth.
Stay with God!
Take heart. Don’t quit.
I’ll say it again:
Stay with God.

My Redeemer.  

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Psalm 27 The Message Bible

Light, space, zest- that’s God!

So, with him on my side I’m fearless, afraid of no one and nothing.

 When vandal hordes ride down ready to eat me alive, Those bullies and toughs fall flat on their faces.

When besieged, I’m calm as a baby.  When all hell breaks loose, I’m collected and cool.

I’m asking God for one thing, only one thing:  To live with him in his house my whole life long.  I’ll contemplate his beauty; I’ll study at his feet.

That’s the only quiet, secure place in a noisy world, The perfect gateway, far from the buzz of traffic.

God holds my head and shoulders above all who try to pull me down.  I’m headed for his place to offer anthems that will raise the roof!   Already I’m singing God-songs; I’m making music to God.  

Listen, God, I’m calling at the top of my lungs:  ”Be good to me! Answer me!”  When my heart whispered, “Seek God,” my whole being replied, “I’m seeking him!”  Don’t hide from me now!

You’ve always been right there for me; don’t turn your back on me now. Don’t throw me out, don’t abandon me;  you’ve always kept the door open.  My father and mother walked out and left me, but God took me in.

Point me down your highway, God;  direct me along a well-lighted street; show my enemies whose side you’re on.  Don’t throw me to the dogs, those liars who are out to get me, filing the air with their threats.  

I’m sure now I’ll see God’s goodness in the exuberant earth.

Stay with God!

Take heart. Don’t quit.

I’ll say it again:

Stay with God.

The Kingdom of Heaven.
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Psalm 127: 3-5  from The Message Bible
"Don’t you see that children are God’s best gift?
The fruit of the womb his generous legacy?
Like a warrior’s fistful of arrows are the children of a vigorous youth.
Oh, how blessed are you parents, with your quivers full of children!
Your enemies don’t stand a chance against you;
You’ll sweep them right off your doorstep.”

The Kingdom of Heaven.

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Psalm 127: 3-5  from The Message Bible

"Don’t you see that children are God’s best gift?

The fruit of the womb his generous legacy?

Like a warrior’s fistful of arrows are the children of a vigorous youth.

Oh, how blessed are you parents, with your quivers full of children!

Your enemies don’t stand a chance against you;

You’ll sweep them right off your doorstep.”

On Fire for Him.
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Matthew 28:20
"…And behold. I am with you always, to the end of the age."
Psalm 31:20
"In the cover of your presence you hide them from the plots of men; you store them in your shelter from the strife of tongues."
Psalm 16:11
You make known to me the path of life; in your presence there is fullness of joy; at your right hand are pleasures forevermore.”

On Fire for Him.

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Matthew 28:20

"…And behold. I am with you always, to the end of the age."

Psalm 31:20

"In the cover of your presence you hide them from the plots of men; you store them in your shelter from the strife of tongues."

Psalm 16:11

You make known to me the path of life; in your presence there is fullness of joy; at your right hand are pleasures forevermore.”